Conference hydra::dejavu

    
    
    
    You might want to check out notes 418.137 and .138.  Along with
    the extremes of emotion I have been feeling, there has been a knot
    in the area of my solar plexus and a thick feeling in my head (no
    smart remarks now :-)) for the past 3 days.  I also have this overall
    inner trembling feeling like when I drink too much coffee.  Others
    I have talked with have been feeling different also, and not all
    comfortable either.
    
    I don't quite know why I and others are feeling these things, but
    I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.
    
    Stay well.
    
    Carole
    

    I suggest that you trust yourself and go with the sensataions in your
    body.  You body has a knowledge that is separate but just as vital as
    mind knowledge. 
    
    It could be that you are just having a down period that just happens to
    occur at the same time as the Age of Flowers ushers in. 

    I can relate to this.
    
    I've been feeling some mood swings myself this past week.  I think
    partly I've been much more aware of my moods.  When I seemed to
    be experiencing unusual calm, I just enjoyed it.  When I seemed
    anxious for no reason, I used meditation to bring myself back to
    a centered state.  Last week I picked up a tape called "Angels of
    Color and Sound".  It is a guided meditation, and using it for
    meditating has been very uplifting.
                         
    
    Claire

Though I read this file often I don't often respond but I did want to share 
a little of what is going on for me right now.  I was at Singing Beach in
Manchester, MA at dawn on 16 Aug with about 30 other people and felt great
about being there but I must admit that I have been experiencing some
negative feelings.  I had one of the worst headaches I've ever had yesterday
and I have noticed that a lot of anger is coming up in general.  While none
of this is particulary new within the last couple of days but I have noticed
an intensifying of the phenomenon. 

I sense that a "cleaning out" is in progress within me and these feelings
might be likened to the pus that needs to come out of a boil before it can
heal.  I believe that this is part of my own personal growth and healing
process so I am not depressed by it.  Nevertheless, it doesn't feel
particularly good to go through this "refining fire".  I find myself still
resisting the process and my head is very tight as a result.  Still, I'm
excited about many things that are happening in my life these days and about
my ability to produce results in ways I wouldn't have dreamed possible a few
years ago. 

In my view what is taking place right now is more symbolic than tangible.  I
think that we have been in an "intesification" or an "acceleration" or a
"contraction", whatever you want to call it, of consciousness for a number
of years and this process will continue for a number more.  It occured to me
that a 50 year span of time is to the life span of the planet (about 8
billion years) what a 30 second span of time would be to a typical life
span of a human (about 80 years).  If I had a major shift that took place in
my life within 30 seconds I'm sure I would feel that something would have
happened to me almost instaneously.  I feel that whatever major shift is
currently in process in the world has been in process at least for the last
25 years and will continue for at least another 25. 

What I do think will happen is that during this period of time individuals
will, indeed, feel instantaneous or near instantaneous shifts of their own
personal consciousness.  I see evidence all over that this has been 
happening for awhile and I expect to see more of it.  I also expect to see 
a manifestation of more resistance and evidence of more "pus" pouring out as
a planetary cleansing takes place. 

I also don't think this phenomonen is unique.  I think these periods have
happened before and will happen again with a periodicity of about 2000 
years.  I think this process is a natural process of all growth and
development whether it be universal or personal.  If I want to develop a
muscle I must cycle it.  I must first contract it and then relax it.  If I
keep it either completely relaxed or completely contracted not only will the
muscle not develop it will atrophy.  I must do the contracting/relaxing
process in order for it to "expand".  Such, I feel, is what happens at a
planetary level and we are fortunate (or unfortunate, depending on ones
perspective) to be living in one of the times of intense planetary
"contraction". 

I feel confident that the process is working and I, for one, tend to
continue to follow the process and take what I get. 

Mark

    	The convergence caught us with our karma down, that's for sure.
    I'm not at liberty to give details, but my family and I have been
    given renewed reason to get our sh*t together very quickly. Physically,
    I got a wicked sunburn (my back blistered before the sun had set,
    which is awfully fast) and my wife and I both skinned our left hands
    on the first knuckle of our third finger, within hours.
    
    	Someone told us (On Watchuset Mtn) this weekend, that they thought
    the convergence was about choices. The earth is sick of us hanging
    out on the edge, trying to 'have our cake and eat it too.' It's
    too late. We've got to choose, not with our thoughts, but with our
    ACTIONS, our everyday, living, working, breathing ACTIONS to work
    out our responsibilities to each other, our selves, and our world
    of common substance and essence.
    
    	And noone wants to hear excuses. I know I hear exuses in my
    head all the time. I tell myself why it's OK that I haven't done
    this for my children, or that for my wife, or this for a goal I've
    had for so many years. I say 'later, later' which REALLY just means
    'Not Now!' Only positive action can BEGIN to erase negative karma,
    and there are no guarantees that it will all get erased at all,
    and noone to say 'I'm sorry' to, or try to make excuses to. 
    
    	DO IT! If it has to be done DO IT, and stop clutching the comfort
    of ineffectualness and studied inaction. Noone can complete all
    the cycles that you've started except you. Tossing off the rose
    colored glasses...
    
    	Ed
    
    	

    
    Well, I for one cannot really say how the weekend had/has affected
    me as of late as far as my moods.  I know that my initiative was
    down, but something strange that I noticed was with the animals
    that I am housesitting.
    
    There is a cat and a dog.  The cat it 12, diabetic and needs shots
    every morning.  It is usually a quiet cat, but last week it just
    WOULD NOT stop meowing.  It was nonstop.  i don't know whether this
    was related to it's health, I doubt it.  Never missed a morning
    shot of insulin yet, and it gets fed on time, has plenty of water.
    No signs of over/under dose.  
    
    The german shepherd is 10 going on 2.  To look at him, you would
    never know how old he is.  He's great!  House sat him plenty of
    times before (many!) and know his actions and reactions.  Friday
    night the cat wouldn't stop meowing so I gave it some food.  Of
    course the dog wanted his share and I gave him his treat, an ice
    cube.  He seemed completely normal, as always.
    
    About 10 minutes after that, he got up and was telling me something.
    Not his usual "I want to go out" routine, more like lets play. 
    Then he took off down the hall and proceeded to get sick.  wonderful,
    right?  Beige carpet, immaculate house.....I'm ready to die!
    
    i made sure that he had plenty of walks after that.  Soe he was
    walked three times: 10:00pm Friday, 2:30 AM Saturday and 7:00 AM.
    After the thrid walk, I went upstairs and started exercising.  the
    dog was downstairs.  done it plenty of times before.  If the dog
    wants something, it will tell me.
    
    In less than an hour, he had done his duty on the carpet.  and it
    was very evident, without providing sickening details what I am
    talking about!!  ;^>  Called the vet, and off we went.  he did have
    a temperature I discovered later.  I took care of the cat, tried
    to find some miracle carpet cleaner (my kingdom for industrial
    strentght carpet cleaner!)  When I got home the cat decided to take
    his turn on the rug.
    
    Both are fine and much quieter.  Could this weekend have affected
    them!!??  thoughts are welcome!
    
    Leigh

                     
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    Hm.  That's just about what happened to one of our dogs over the
    weekend, too.  She got really sick, so she spent the weekend with
    the vet.  She's fine now.  Our other dog didn't seem to be affected 
    though.
    
    The strange part of this is that the vet said there were many other
    dogs with the same symptoms, and that they didn't know what the
    actual cause was......so they treated the symptoms, and that seemed
    to do the trick.
    
    Course, I had to complete the treatment at home, which consisted
    of squirting 15cc of yellow awful-tasting medicine down her throat.
    Fun times in dog-parenting!  I estimate that about 10-12cc made it
    in for the remaining 5 treatments!