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Conference misery::feline_v1

Title:Meower Power is Valuing Differences
Notice:FELINE_V1 is moving 1/11/94 5pm PST to MISERY
Moderator:MISERY::VANZUYLEN_RO
Created:Sun Feb 09 1986
Last Modified:Tue Jan 11 1994
Last Successful Update:Fri Jun 06 1997
Number of topics:5089
Total number of notes:60366

2779.0. "A LETTER TO CHLOE" by SANFAN::BALZERMA () Fri Aug 18 1989 17:49

    Dear Chloe,
    
    Last August I went to look at a gray kitty.  When I looked into
    the pen, I saw a little gray face and your sweet black face right
    next to it.  I knew that I had to have you both.  Little did I
    know the joy that you would bring to me. Nor the pain.
    
    I know it was tough for you at first.  Zach was always right out
    there hogging all the attention.  You were so aloof.  Zach would
    sit on top of me, you would sit next to me just far enough away
    that I couldn't touch you, but close enough to let me know you
    were there.  At times I would feel guilty that I did not love
    you as much as I loved Zach, but just like a mother and her children,
    I loved you in different ways.  The first night that I awakened
    to a paw brushing my cheek, I woke up looking into your eyes.  The
    bond was there, it would only grow stronger.
    
    The night that I had to rush you to the emergency hospital after
    you were spayed my leg was shaking so much I couldn't even put the
    clutch in.  When I left you to stay overnight I sobbed all the way
    home.  There was such an empty feeling, I was so happy that you
    were alright.
    
    I found out that you and Zach were deaf.  My heart ached.  You were
    my "special" kids, I loved you even more.  We had communicated for
    months in our own way.  The love that we had went beyond sound.
    
    Last week when Zach was so sick, I thought that he would be the
    one to leave me.  Being so wrapped up with him I didn't even notice
    your behavior right away.  The as the instances increased that you
    bumped into things, I knew we had a problem.  It killed me to see
    like that.  I knew you had lost your sight.
    
    Chloe, I know I did the right thing.  I could not let you live your
    life in a world with no sight and no sound.  It was the hardest
    thing that I ever had to do. 
    
    Zach and I miss you so much and you will always be my little girl.
    
    Love forever,
    
    Mum and Zach
    
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2779.1WR2FOR::CORDESBRO_JOFri Aug 18 1989 18:117
    Marlene,
    
    That was a beautiful tribute to sweet Chloe.  I loved her too, even
    though we had never met.  I know that she knows that you loved her,
    and that you did the right thing.
    
    Jo
2779.2CondolenscesFSHQA2::RWAXMANA Cat Makes a Purrfect FriendFri Aug 18 1989 18:2815
    Marlene, it's a good thing I keep a box of kleenex right next to
    my terminal!  Your letter was wonderful; your tribute so touching.
    I love the name Chloe and your love for her just poured from your
    note.
    
    Having lost a kitten recently to a congenital illness, I know the
    pain you must be feeling.  Chloe has a special "mom" and even though
    her time with you was short, you gave her a lifetime of love.
    
    I hope in time you will find room in your heart and home for a new
    furface.  In the meantime, let the tears flow... they help clear
    the way for happy times to come.
    
    --Roberta
    
2779.4so sadPARITY::DENISEAnd may the traffic be with youFri Aug 18 1989 20:227
      That is so beautifully written and felt by all those reading it.
    What a sad time for you all.
    
             me and my bunch offer our condolences.
    
                                 Denise
    
2779.5pulled from the bit bucketVAXWRK::SKALTSISDebFri Aug 18 1989 20:2416
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    Oh gosh...I'm not supposed to be crying at my terminal.  That
    was beautiful.  I'm sure that she knows that you did it for love
    and for her sake.
    
    I'm so sorry.
    
    Linda
    
2779.6VIDEO::MORRISSEYGet up on it!Fri Aug 18 1989 20:4311
    
    
    	I am so sorry...Every time I call to my Chloe I will
    	say a little prayer for yours....
    
    	That was a beautiful tribute to your kitty.  I have tears
    	in my eyes.
    
    	Our best wishes
    	JJ and Cary & Brandi, Sasha, Duke and Chloe
    
2779.7Sniff, sniff...such love...MRMFG1::MTAMIRIt's CLUSTA::TAMIR in disguiseSat Aug 19 1989 02:0411
    It's a good thing I'm at home....
    
    I've had some heart-to-fur talks with Honey about someday having
    to do the best I can for him.  I only hope I can be as brave as
    you in facing the fact that I'm responsible for the quality of my
    babies lives.
    
    God bless you...you've got heart of gold, but that doesnt make it
    hurt any less.
    
    Mary
2779.8NZOV01::PARKINSONReunite Gondwannaland!Sat Aug 19 1989 09:284
    What a wonderful expression of your love - thank you for sharing
    it. We're all thinking about you and Zach.
    
    Shayne (NZ)
2779.9CRUISE::NDCNancy Diettrich-Cunniff-I wanted it allMon Aug 21 1989 11:595
    So much love came through in your letter.  I'm so sorry about
    Chloe.  She will be remembered this quarter in the Silver
    Lining Memorial.
      Nancy DC
    
2779.10I'm so SorryAIMHI::OFFENMon Aug 21 1989 20:0217
    I knew when I started reading this note, I wasn't going to go away
    without crying.  I didn't (go away).
    
    How sad to lose a loved one.  What caused it (or do you know).  Is the
    same going to happen to Zach (I hope not)??
    
    I also agree that you did the right thing.  I just had to put my dear
    friend Keisha (a dog) down and know exactly how you feel.
    
    Tell Zach that we all love him and grief for Chloe.  She is in Heaven 
    with lots of other kitties and doggies.
    
    My sympathies,
    
    Sandi (mom to Lightning, DejaVu & Thunder)
    
    
2779.11Sweet Chloe...WR2FOR::HARPHAM_LYMon Aug 21 1989 20:4815
    
    Marlene,
    
    What a wonderful tribute to your sweet Chloe.  I'm so glad I got
    to meet her during her short time on Earth.  I really sensed what
    a sweetie she was, and that like my Molly, she wouldn't be everyone's
    friend like Zach would, but she would be your friend, and a more
    loving one you wouldn't find....  she was just so cute, and so sweet...
    
    Let's hope she and Abbey have met, and are best of friends...
    
    One of many hearts with you,
    
    Lynn
    
2779.12SANFAN::BALZERMATue Aug 22 1989 15:459
    I would like to thank you all for your support during this difficult
    time.  It has helped me get through this, but I am going to have
    to go deep within to find more strength to pull me through this
    next one.  Zach has also been diagnosed with progressional retinal
    atrophy (PRA).  It is hard to determine the timeframe, but the outcome
    is the same.  When you think that you could never feel such pain
    again, you're proven wrong.  I have a choice.  He can stay with
    me, or be with Chloe.  I wonder which he would choose if he could
    talk...
2779.13Could we have more info on diagnosis?MAMIE::IVESTue Aug 22 1989 16:1616
    I know dogs are no like cats, but in many ways they are. We had
    a friend who had a german sheppard who was deaf and then went blind
    at the early age of two. Being he was a very expensive show dog
    they talked with the vets at Cornell and they said, as long as the
    dog had his sense of smell he could get along just fine, but without
    smell and the loss of his other two senses there was no hope. I
    am happy to say "gray" lived to 12 years old. 
    
    I would be interested to know if the doctors talked to you about
    any of this. I know dogs live more by scent but many times I see
    my two furfaces with their noses to the ground sniffing at something,
    and the nose works overtime when we put the food dishes down.
    
    I am sorry you had to lose your loving companion.
    
    Barbara
2779.14This is hard for Marlene to talk about right nowWR2FOR::CORDESBRO_JOTue Aug 22 1989 17:1316
    Marlene has taken both Chloe and Zach to a highly respected Feline
    Opthamologist here in California.  Unfortunately, neither Chloe's
    nor Zach's condition could be reversed with surgery or with medication.
    
    I think that Marlene is trying to do what she thinks is best for
    both cats.  This has not been easy for Marlene.  Zach was actually
    the first to become ill, and he is still having some of those problems.
    The Opthomoligist is predicting that Zach's eyesight will degenerate
    very quickly, like Chloe's did.
    
    The Opthomologist also feels that Zach and Chloe's deafness and
    PRA are genetic problems.  Since Zach and Chloe are littermates,
    there is a very good chance that he is right.
    
    Jo
    
2779.15CondolencesUSEM::MCQUEENEYBob McQueeneyTue Aug 22 1989 19:278
    Marlene, I can identify with your difficult decision.  I, too, had
    to put down one of my favourite companions, Malcolm, a few years
    ago due to suffering from disease that could not be cured.  It was
    one of the hardest decisions I ever made, and I'll never forget
    him.  I sympathise with you wholeheartedly.
    
    Bob, Smoke, Nightmare, Sneakers, Nova, and Ruffles (the wonder cat)
    
2779.16CRUISE::NDCNancy Diettrich-Cunniff-I wanted it allWed Aug 23 1989 12:215
    I think I would keep Zach until his loss of sight was obviously
    a problem for him.  Cherish the few remaining days.  You'll know
    when the time is right.
      My heart is with you.
       Nancy DC
2779.17Thinking of youSCRUZ::CORDES_JASet Apartment/Cat_Max=3Wed Aug 23 1989 23:5410
    Marlene,
    
    We're thinking of you, Chloe and Zach in this terrible time.  I
    know you'll do what is best for Zach.  Take comfort in the thought
    that he and Chloe will eventually be together again.  This is such
    a difficult thing to have to live through.  I do hope that when
    the time is right you'll consider sharing your love with other feline 
    companions.
    
    Jan, Bailey, Amelia and Carrie