| Investing all your faith and trust in another is asking a lot from
that person, and also renders your inner resources fragile. Until
you can trust yourself, you will not be able to find that support
in one person. Yes, maybe for a short time, but eventually, the
other person will be overwhelmed by the responsibility you have
given him/her.
When you begin to develop your own interests and become stronger,
then the relationships you enter into will be stronger and more
balanced. Until then, you are asking the other person to carry
most of the weight.
Try to take an objective look at how you're going about establishing
and maintaining a relationship and learn from mistakes
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> Investing all your faith and trust in another is asking a lot from
> that person, and also renders your inner resources fragile. Until
> you can trust yourself, you will not be able to find that support
> in one person. Yes, maybe for a short time, but eventually, the
> other person will be overwhelmed by the responsibility you have
> given him/her.
Sometimes I do seem to muddle things up, please let me clarify, I am thinking
rather clearer now. I never lost trust or faith in myself actually, but yes I
did put alot of trust and faith in the person who said he would love me
forever and would forever be at my side through thick and thin, sickness and
health, richer and poorer. Guess i shouldn't have taken that quite so
seriously. ;-) I thought mine was the _storybook_ romance. Man and woman
deeply in love, sharing all things, happy in and with each other. Each
possessing that remarkable ability to sense the others mood level and act
accordingly. After all, we can't share all things and each must occassionally
have a little space on a very personal level. Ah, but yes, fatally I did trust
him to always be my man.
> When you begin to develop your own interests and become stronger,
> then the relationships you enter into will be stronger and more
> balanced. Until then, you are asking the other person to carry
> most of the weight.
I have many interests, some which included my sweetheart and some that he did
not participate in, due to personal taste, time committment or whatever. I did
not expect him to join me in all things.
> Try to take an objective look at how you're going about establishing
> and maintaining a relationship and learn from mistakes
And thankyou for taking the time to share with me, I will endevor to gain all
benefits possible from this experience and move on with my life. I have not
done well in the past when I'm alone. I become too reckless with my health and
general well-being. I've always loved being surrounded by people, but my
children are now grown and on their own and I want them to forge their own
way. I shall miss the talking, joking and sharing of each others day with my
loved one though...those were the most special of times.
> I think it has to do with one's self-esteem. How they feel about
> themselves. Whether a person can be truly independent and alone
> [solo: not to be read lonely] begins with one's ability to feel
> good about themselves. I'm not saying that is easy. Especially
> for someone who may be experiencing feelings of low self-esteem.
> Those feelings can be carryed back so far [baggage] that the person
> is not aware of how impacting it is.
I never had to much problem with my self-esteem prior to this >unless you
count the dreadful teen years and all _those_ insecurities< ;-) ;-) I've
generally spent my adulthood very upbeat, positive directed. I've always
attracted lots of people, but there were very few that I formed true
friendships with and I value those precious few highly. It was always a
quality thing with me, not the quanity. Anyone can *know* lots of people. I
know lots and lots of people too, but only a few are my friends. My husband is
my friend, my expectations were that we'd *always* be very special friends.
His expectations seem to have gone a new and unchartered course. He's wants us
to part, as friends, but to part all the same.
> The natural [human] thing to do is to rely on another person. This
> makes the bad feelings go away. Unfortunatly; when one relies on
> another for their self esteem they become so dependant that can
> let go. That may be ok for someone who is in a healthy [???]
> relationship. A relationship in which the other person recognizes
> their partners weeknesses and does not take advantage of it.
>
> But; most often that is not the case. The person now is trapped.
> They can't let go of the person who is hurting them because they
> would die of the thought of being alone. How many times have you
> heard the phrase. "I know deep down inside he/she's a good person.
> Their just upset with me. I could'nt leave them"
>
> There are so many people that are so afraid of being alone they
> would compromise their entire lives and be with the wrong person
> rather face an empty home.
I don't get my self-esteem from my husband, it comes from with-in..I am
feeling quite blue over the whole matter and my esteem is crushed, but I know
I'll move through those feelings. And should I not be able to move smoothly, I
will inevitable mask those feelings. Yeah, I know, _that's_ unhealthy, but it
is a reality. I never felt trapped. This love made me feel free as the wind
and valued and special and great...do you follow why it is hard and painful to
give it up.
> I suggest if you are really unhappy with your mate and see your
> life passing you by and you fear the fear of being alone more than
> the unhappiness of being with this person you get professional help.
> Life is too short to be trapped in an unhealthy relationship.
>
> I know. It took me two years to get the guts to ask for a divorse.
> I was so afraid of what being alone [really alone] would do to
> me. And I can attest to the fact [9 years later] that I am a better
> person for it. I am independant. I do not need someone to make
> me feel good. I feel good about myself.
>
> Thats not to say I would not want to share that [goodness] with
> another person. Remember! A person can not take away something
> they never gave you. If you are happy about yourself then that
> happiness can't be taken away by someone. But if you need someone
> in your life to give you happiness then something is wrong to start
> with.
Bill, thanks so much for sharing with me, I do follow what you are saying
to me and your thinking is sound and well-directed. It appears that you had to
hoe a pretty rough row yourself. I don't want a divorce though, but he does. I
know that I can support myself, that is not a fear, I just fear being alone,
all night, every night. Perhaps later a thousand ideas will come to me to make
those hours productive and fulfilling. That will be my goal once this
relationship finally goes the way of other broken relationships.
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